This is my new mantra…
I don’t know about you but I sometimes get flack (that’s a word right?) for being me. Maybe I wasn’t hugged enough as child or maybe I am just a nut job. Either way, this is me and I am learning to be ok with that.
Recently I had some people tell me I am an aggressive person; that I could be more tactful and try to not be so blunt with people. I spent a few days (ok weeks) in a funk, feeling horribly self conscious, wondering if I was just a b*tch that people thought about this way. Was I mean to people? Did I really need to speak more softly and try to be nicer?
But then one day it hit me, I can’t be something I’m not. I sometimes admire those around me that can stay calm in all situations. I love that I have a sister-in-law that is the sweetest thing since apple pie. I often wish I were more like that but I’m not.
Now, I’m not saying I am a mean person. I would like to think I am one of the most caring people out there. A lot of people don’t even realize I ran a fundraiser to donate to a local no kill shelter that was about to close their doors and another to help fund a house for a disabled boy and his grandmother to help build them a new home. I have volunteered hours to a local battered women’s shelter. I give money to several groups I believe in. I could go on but my point is that I would like to think I am a very nice person even though I don’t feel the need to always tell people all of the nice things I do.
However, I do cuss like a sailor. I often speak my mind and it is not always what people want to hear. I speak often of those I want to throat punch or front kick to the face. But one thing you never have to worry about with me is where you stand. You never have to worry I am just pretending to be your friend. If I don’t like you, you’ll pretty much know that. When I have something to say, I say it. Maybe I don’t have the most tact in the world but I’m not constantly having to whine about not getting what I want because I speak out. And speaking of whining, please know, if you whine to me about your situation and you are bringing it on yourself, I am probably going to tell you that. Don’t call me complaining you have no money and then go on a family vacation. If you were that d*mn broke you should have stayed at home. Or even worse, whine about no money when you stay home. Get a job if you are so tired of being broke!
I am not a big hugger or touchy/feely type person. I do try to work on this because I want to show my husband and children love and affection but I will never be one of those people that walk up and hug you when you enter a room. I just don’t like people in my space. I love my husband more than life itself but he will always be more outwardly affectionate than I am. That is just the way I was built.
Don’t patronize me or talk down to me. You may find yourself on the receiving end of my kindergartener sized fist. (And they say I’m aggressive..pppffssttt!!)
Just because I don’t act all dainty and bow down to others though doesn’t make me a bad person. That doesn’t make me less feminine. My favorite color is still pink. I love me some high heels and dresses and diamonds are always this girl’s best friend. I’m just no whiny feminist. I don’t b*tch about men not leaving the toilet seat down. Hell, maybe we should be putting the seat UP for them! Ever think of that?
What I’m trying to say is, be yourself. Embrace the person that you are. Maybe you are an acquired taste but so what? Uniqueness is lacking in today’s world. Everyone wants to be like somebody else. Even the “loners” all dress alike. They all swear they are original but act the same exact way as every other sullen loner around. Don’t try to change for others. Be the person you were meant to be and find the people that like that version of you.